Fix You :)

2011-12-27T07:02:00.000-08:00

maybe my expectations are too high,

maybe it's because the dark histories,

maybe i am too afraid,

maybe i'm protecting myself from getting hurt,

maybe i don't want the same histories to be repeated again,
maybe i'm still holding on the past,

or maybe..

it's just me, the complicated me.

that's why i tend to push people away and not depending on others, because i am too afraid if i take this wall down again, i'll getting hurt all over again.

to you, yes you know who are you.

New Year.

2011-12-27T01:25:00.000-08:00

2011 is about to leave, and 2012 is coming.

i listened to the Red FM just now, at the library. one of the deejay said,
" hey, instead of talking about your resolutions, why don't you write and list them?"
and i thought, "oh okay, good idea"
let's write some resolutions for the upcoming year, shall we?

first ; i really want to improve myself, i want to be closer to Allah. it sounds cliche right? yes but it is true, i want to be closer to Him. since i left school i can feel i'm slightly far from Him. astagrifullahalazim, i know it sounds bad, but it's not wrong to improve ourselves, right?

second ; i want to be a good daughter. i want to make my parents proud of me. the last time i made them proud is PMR, i guess? yep, maybe. that was the last time i made them happy, truly happy. i want to study hard and grad with a great pointer and end up with a good job.

third ; about studies. i want to be hardworking as much i had be before. i struggled so much when i'm in lower form, because i want to enter MRSM TGB, and i managed to. but when i get what i want, i stop struggling. i don't know what happened to me, but since i entered TGB, i lost my track. so in 2012, i hope i can find my track back.

fourth ; i want to be a wise spender. since i have my own money (university's allowance), i don't know how to cut my budget, i feel like my money flows like waterfall -_-

fifth ; i hope in 2012 i can be stronger, i hope i can be a wise thinker. i want to be a woman who thinks about pros and cons before making any decision. most woman makes decision based on their emotions, including me. most of all, i want to be more patient than before. i don't want to be weak, because i believe if we are strong, people will respect us, kan?

sixth ; grab myself a samsung galaxy S2. hehe i know i just said about cutting budget and be a wise spender, but since it is in my wishlist since september, it is an exception hew hew :P

seventh ; i want to be positive, i don't want to be paranoid. i'll try to break the walls surround me which preventing me to trust people.

eighth ; stop depending on others, because i believed in the end of the day, people will let us down. i want to appreciate all people in my life. be grateful, give more, expect less, and live happily. most of all, create memories :)

ninth ; have a healthy diet.

tenth ; STOP STALKING!

i have written mine, how about yours? :)

Final exams.

2011-12-26T00:20:00.000-08:00

hello! it is time for a new post i guess? yeah :)

here i am, in the study week. exam starts on 2nd January and finishes on 18th January.

PRAY FOR ME!

btw, here some scene from How I Met Your Mother. did you get what i mean? yes, no? hewhew okay bye!

does all boys think like this?

Sometimes you promise someone forever but it doesn't work out that way.

2011-11-16T05:58:00.000-08:00

Summer after high school when we first met

We make out in your Mustang to Radio head

And on my 18th birthday we got that chain tattoos

Used to steal your parents' liquor and climb to the roof

Talk about our future like we had a clue

Never plan that one day I'd be losing you

And in another life I would be your girl

We keep all our promises, be us against the world

And in other life I would make you stay

So I don't have to say you were the one that got away

The one that got away

I was dreaming you were my Johnny Cash

Never one, we got the other, we made a pact

Sometimes when I miss you, I put those records on

Someone said you had your tattoo removed

Saw you downtown singing the blues

It's time to face the music, I'm longer your muse

And in another life I would be your girl

We keep all our promises, be us against the world

And in another life, I would make you stay

So I don't have to say you were the one that got away

The one that got away

The one, the one, the one

The one that got away

All these money can't buy me a time machine, no

Can't replace you with a million rings, no

I should've told you what you meant to me, whoa

'Cause now I pay the price

In another life I would be your girl

We keep all our promises, be us against the world

And in another life, I would make you stay

So I don't have to say you were the one that got away

The one that got away

The one, the one, the one, the one

And in another life I would make you stay

So I don't have to say you were the one that got away

The one that got away

p/s ; this song makes me cry, zillion times :'(

As simple as that ;)

2011-11-11T03:26:00.001-08:00

This made my day. As simple as that :)

Acoustic.

2011-11-11T02:38:00.000-08:00

Tengok muka dia, feeling gilaaaa.

Shila Hamzah, kenapa comel sangat?

*saja je post, serious takde kaitan dengan yang masih hidup ataupun yang telah meninggal dunia.

Sekian.

Of Photography.

2011-11-08T02:08:00.000-08:00

Hello, Assalamualaikum :)

Today I wanted to tell you a story about how and why I love photography so much. It begins like this;

During my school years, I always browsing to photobucket, cherrybum and whatsoever websites. Zaman Myspace, ehehe -__-" I bet you guys pernah jumpa websites ni.

Then, during Asasi, I get influence into Lomography. I love seeing those effects which I've seen on the website during Myspace's era (era?). For me it's kinda cool to have those effects without editing (Y)

So i browsed the blogshop and see all the cameras and prices, but I was about to have the Final Exam on that time and I have to postpone my wishes :(

After Asasi, I gone through a break up. I rarely eat, I rarely talk, and I just don't be myself. Then my parents bought me this camera to enlighten me :) Nikon DSLR D3100. How cool my parents? Cool kan? So I use this camera to make me happy, take the pictures of scenery and all the nice things :)

"Apa guna ada DSLR tapi asyik set mode Auto" - Twitter Trend

So I google "how to make light painting using DSLR" and see the tricks trough Youtube, and I get this :D

Raya, bunga api. Tapi tak guna tripod, sebab tu shaky. Noob, nak buat macam mana. Eheh.

There are so much efforts I made after I get this camera. It's like... I only want the cheap toy camera but instead I get DSLR! Then I searched websites which can give the cool effects like Lomo, and I found this.

http://www.rollip.com/

And I get a picture like this ;

I love starring at clouds. It makes me calm and free :D I'm currently studying at Perlis. Perlis ialah perkampungan yang cantik. Kiri kanan hijau je. Serious cantik. Tengok atas, awan colour biru. That's what I love about Perlis, the scenery :)

These pictures were taken by my phone, 3.2 megapixels.

Lepas tu, saya install apps Pixlr-O-Matics from Android Market, and I get this;

On my birthday, someone gave me La Sardina, a lomo camera. I was very happy because it is my first lomo camera babyyyyyyyyy! Second thing is he bought it in pair, well one for me and one for him :) *ehem

Green is mine :)

Trial after trial. These are some pictures I took using La Sardina.

Sebenarnya La Sardina boleh buat Multiple Exposure, tapi tak tahu lah kenapa, everytime ambil gambar, dah habis baru perasan boleh buat MX ( .___.)

Lepas tu housemate si kaki lowyat pun tanya "weh kau nak beli filem murah tak? kat lowyat"

I was "ye keeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee? NAKKKKKK"

So nah dia bagi ni

http://forum.lowyat.net/topic/1704576

*end story*

Then I try browsing camera through The Click Shop, and I bought Superheadz UWS Yellow Peace (Y)

Some pictures I took ;

So thats all the story setakat ni. Hihihihi setakat ni I got positive feedbacks from friends, well janganlah hentam cakap saya punya gambar tak lawa :( Saya noob lagi kot ehehehe.

To all the beginners yang nak try, my advice is try je, hehe :D You can learn all the lessons from internet. We got youtube (Y)

Short.

2011-11-01T06:14:00.000-07:00

I got Biochemistry test tomorrow, pray for me yo!

New and fresh :)

2011-10-31T09:31:00.000-07:00

Hello :)

I'm Fatin Izzati, or you can call me Tenten.

This is an old blog, but I've cleared all the previous posts due to certain reasons.

Firstly, some of the previous posts were written in rempitz language, which I practiced in years back then, the high school. Okay I know #lame. Therefore I decided to remove those posts.

Secondly, some of the posts were too emotional. #lamenumber2.

Teenage + Girl = What do you expect? Hiks.

Thirdly, some of the posts were lame. LOSER. Capital L. #lamenumber3.

Fourth, some posts were nonsense #lamenumber4.

Fifth, this is the main reason. I deleted all the posts because some of them were painful. Too much pain to handle. Therefore I decided to give up and not fight for them. When I read some posts, the pains are still there. The time, the tears, I still can feel it. So I remove them, remove them from my memories.

I just want a happy life. Shall we start fresh? ;)

"Lights will guide you home, and ignites the world, and I will try, FIX YOU ;)"